Woke up to the lovely smell of Mocca coffee brewing and Jen making breakfast for me. It was a very nice birthday. Gotta be one the best I've had. Jarott bought me dinner and even had time to film some bushman videos.

Our "Best of" Train horn scares Video. I hope you like it

Bushman Scare Video

This is my Video of the Best Bushman Scare reactions I've got over the last month or so. I hope you like this awesome scare prank in our Ghillie Suit!

the days just are Ugh

2/2/12

This week has had its ups and downs.  Thought I was going to have enough to get my Harley and then my brake assembly broke in my truck. It cost me over 1000 to fix them let alone,  two new tires and other needed repairs. So I've been weighing my options in selling it and buying another truck more dependable. I would have to scratch my Harley plans for that for a while which I really do not want to do. Though I am probably going to have to when I do my taxes for Uncle Sam is going to want some cash from me.

Things keep going deeper and deeper and I'm trying to stay away from where I was a couple years ago. I keep getting these deep down feeling that everythings going to turn to shit. I have this self destructive side that always like to poke through when things are going good.  Things just start tumbling down before I can catch on whats happening. 

I love my job and I believe I am up there to the top installers that they  have. Though from a prior employer I have that permanent feeling i'm going to get canned everyday. For they were a complete piece of work and its effected me in every job.  With where I'm working now its pretty distent and they usually only call when something is wrong. So I don't really get to talk to them much and when I do its quite short. I'm just glad I enjoy what I do and get paid well for it as well.


I like to be alone. People tend to drive me crazy cause I have a hard time relating in a personal matter. I can lay the fake stuff out for work to get the customers to love me but once I"m done I just rather be alone sometimes.  Thank God I do get along with Ray and Jen great. But other than them my friend listing is basically zil. My best friend is up in Oregon and we talk maybe every month or so.  Big groups gets me all twisted up. I get all awkward and just isn't enjoyable to me. I'll end up finding a barstool and grab a beer hiding from everyone else.   I think its the constant chatter, loud sounds and the fact I have a hard time understanding what anyone says if theres more than 2 people talking or something else making noise.  So when I do talk in that situation you are only going to see head bobs from me.

Lets pray this following week goes better than this week.  Its Jen's birthday tomorrow so I'll put a happy face on for the day.


Can't believe its been over 11 years now since she left us.  My life would be so much different. My families as well. The reason? who the fuck knows.  I have yet to see anything positive out of it.  What a fucking shame God.... Why don't you take the assholes in life, maybe murdering bastards. What this this all prove?  a Trial?  A trial for what?  

Using Skype with Charllote and Chloey! What fun!

Bills!

Bill, Bills, Bills, but I am having someone manage my money for me it should will help quite a bit!  Living pay check to paycheck is too much.


Goals:  Buy my Harley

Be debt free

Go on vacation more often!

Enjoy Life

Life Changes

It was around midnight and I was finishing up on my computer about to get up to go to bed. Jen turned around and asked if I heard someone talking outside the glass door. I had my headphones in so I said no. I took them out to realize someone was yelling. I mean yelling. So we are like what the hell its midnight I'm tired and want to go to bed. We look out side and the building close to ours was ingulfed in flames.  Before I could even figure out where my shoes were to get out and check to see if they need help Jen Just bolted down and ran over there like a zombie was after her. I have never seen her run so fast. I am not even sure if she had shoes on to start or somehow she knows the skills of putting them on as you are running like a madman.

When we got down there I think a firetruck was just showing up. Jen Helped a lady out who had singed hair and was dazed out of her mind. Who wouldn't be? She's loosing everything right before her eyes :( She mumbled something about her mother was still in there. As the ambulance came to take her we thought we heard someone say that her mom made it out. Prayers answered for the moment. 

Today we found out that the mother didn't make it. I think she got out but the horrible smoke got her. The lady Jen helped out is in critical care for the smoke is doing a number on her as well.

Makes you think,  Life is short. Very short so enjoy every moment you have with your loved ones. Don't take like seriously and Enjoy your time. If everyday is hell then you better make some changes. I am.


Last Aug I quit smoking pretty much cold turkey. I feel so much better. Last week I did my first 5K run since I was in the military. Though my time was way over doubled before I messed up my back and knees. (Walked 1/2 of it) I'm hiring someone so I don't have to work everyday. Though there will be less money to play with. I'm creating a team to do the toughmudder in Southern California. on my birthday. 11 mile run up a mile high mountain. Yes from the start line theres a 1 mile climb (2300ft) to the top then Back down. Next pay check I told Ray I'm going to buy a bike and we are going to ride from the top of Mt Tampalis home. I'm been doing a little more at a time and I think I can do it. Lets pray my knees and back allows me to.


What changes are you going to make?  More time with family? more vacation?